My lover and I had been together for a few years now. We have had a good life together all be it with an average and normal sex life. Our love making was what you might categorize as vanilla style which has been ok thus far. Most recently I had been fantasizing us doing much more than just plain old average fucking normal sex. I wanted the opportunity to try out some of the things I saw on those many porn websites. I wanted to try oral sex, bondage, anal and many of the fetish sex which made my dick sit up straight every time I watched. However I didn’t have the courage to ask that of my lover. I am a decent guy and I would not cheat or do anything to hurt my partner. So every time I built up the courage to tell her what I want I cower up afraid to peruse it further. I end up alone looking at the internet dreaming about sex and eventually masturbating to get it out of my system. So I decided to do something about it. I figured the only way was to send her an email explaining what I was going through. So here is what I wrote:
My dearest lover,
I know that you might be surprised to receive an email from your lover. But I thought that it would be easier to put this in writing. After so many years together you know that it is sometimes difficult for me to express my sexual desires out load. Frankly speaking I sometimes don’t even know what I want myself. However I definitely know that I want you and I think about you every single day and I am sure that you feel the same way about me. However I want more out of our sex life. More then just our plain old love making. I want to explore our sexuality much further and experiment with new ideas such as role playing, oral sex, bondage, anal …etc
Every night when we are together I am reluctant to initiate our love making. I don’t know why but most recently I am afraid to push you for sex which we have not tried before. I always tell myself that you might not want to do it or are not in the mood. Maybe this is just an excuse for my cowardliness. However I want you to know that I lust for you every day and I want to fuck you every single night. I want to feel your hands on my cock. I want to have you suck my dick. I want to lick your pussy until you come in my mouth. I want to tie you up, spank you and fuck you until you scream out load. I guess I am afraid to ask all those things. Therefore I thought to send you this email explaining what I am going through.
I also thought that one way which might help me overcome my sexual reluctance is to send you a link to a porn movie, or a sexy picture of some kind to explain what I want out of our love making. If you are ok with this then please send me a reply.
Your reluctant lover.
So I patiently waited to receive her answer which I immediately got a few minutes later.
To My Reluctant Lover,
I want you to always express your sexual desires to me. If it is easier for you to convey this in an email or a message all the better. I promise that I will try to fulfill your needs every time. On many days I feel that I want you near me but can’t touch you. So I go to sleep craving for your body and you never know it. I also want to explore our sexuality further and I am willing to try new things with you.
Let us make 10 pm every night a fixed date. Every night you follow me to bed, we turn off the light and hug each other and hopefully do a lot more than that. I want to feel your cock in my pussy. I want to squeeze your dick and milk your juices into my mouth. I want you to lick my pussy with your mouth until I come. That is also what I always fantasize us doing every single night but I am afraid to tell you.
I don’t want you to be afraid of pushing me even when my hormones are acting up. I know for a fact that you are a good guy and that you are the only one who could stimulate my mind and body. Maybe it is related to my hormones but I get depressed and scared when my sex drive diminishes and when you don’t want to be with me every day. It makes me feel old. But when you make me reach an orgasm this makes me feel young and good about myself.
I can’t wait to receive the first of your messages.